Thursday, September 30, 2010

How this Twirly Girl got her groove back...

Or not.

I was so excited to get back to class at Twirly Girls last night.  I had been out for almost two months (needed a mental break from life more than anything else).  For the past two months, I have been pretty good about getting up at 5 a.m. for the gym.  Spinning (cycling), yoga, lifting weights.  I haven't lost much weight but I can already see a little bit of a difference in my dimply thunder thighs and how my pants fit.  Unfortunately, when I spin, I get huge thighs.  But if they're smooth, huge thighs, I'll take them over the fat encrusted, large thighs I have now. 

I guess I thought I was going to come to class, be super strong from two whole months in the gym, be able to climb, invert and do all kinds of tricks.  Instead, I felt awkward and slow.  My movements felt jerky.  And the calluses on my hands were clearly gone because my skin started rubbing off.  It's like I am starting pole for the first time ever!  It was a bit of a disappointment.

Don't get me wrong, it was great to see the girls again (I missed them a lot and only wish Bel had been there last night because I've missed her a lot too), but I was disappointed in myself.  I have determined that I am a very social person and staying home actually only depresses me more.  So I need to find a good balance between working-gym-friends/family, because I truly feel like I need to have all three in my life to keep myself healthy and happy.  Oh, who am I kidding?!  If I won the lottery, I'd drop my job like a hot potato (SORRY, MEL!!!).  But still...I currently need to work to pay bills and fund my fun stuff.  I need the gym to be healthy.  And I need to be social to be happy.  Wait.  I need to fit rest in there somewhere. I'll get to that later.  I'm still working on that whole scheduling thing. 

I started physical therapy (through my insurance) on my lower back yesterday.  For those who don't know, my journey started in November/December of 2009.  My left hip started hurting a lot.  I had days where the pain was so bad, I could barely walk.  I have had x-rays and an MRI.  They can't really find anything wrong -- maybe a small tear where the MRI couldn't "see."  I have kept my pain levels manageable by using Keith from Tri-Valley Bodyworks.  He is amazing.  But still, the pain has lingered somewhat and now my lower back pain is slowly increasing.  Not sure if the hip pain was masking the back pain or what.  I can usually walk around for about an hour before I have to sit because the pain is so bad.  It's especially troublesome because my dad had hip/back pain and just had to have surgery to repair a bulging disc.  If he's not careful, he'll be back in for some hardware to repair a compressed disc.  I know my sister and a couple of cousins also deal with similar issues, so I am trying to be proactive and avoid surgeries and cortisone shots (which is what the doctors keep offering me).  But if my dad is only in his 50's and already having back surgery...what am I facing in my 30's?!

Anyway, I am tight and sore in the L4/L5 area of of my spine (the lower back).  The theory is that because I spend so much time doing things bending forward (sitting at a computer all day, spinning, etc.), that walking especially hurts my back because it's the closest thing I do to bending backward.  I am very limited in my back bending abilities (and there go my dreams of doing that back bendy thing against the pole!!!).  I have been given some stretches to start this week.  Next week I get exercises and I have been told to get into pilates reformer training as soon as possible.  The hope is that I just need to build my core strength to get the pain to stop.  If that doesn't work, then it's on to the specialist's office to talk about more x-rays, MRIs, and, I'm sure, cortisone shots (which I keep declining). 

I wonder if I can get Keith, massage and pilates reformer training covered by my insurance?  Hmmmmm....  Probably not.  :-/

So there ya go.  I thought I was going to have an awesome blog today about how I was a star pole student and was back in the saddle.  But I'm still a struggling Twirly Girl trying to find her way in life.  Rob and I leave for Hawaii next Wednesday so it will be a couple of weeks before I make it to class again.  I do have a couple of Jamilla DVDs, so I need to practice my pole at home.  But I WILL do tricks some day.  It's not a matter of if, just when. 

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

I'm guest blogging again!

I submitted another blog to The Pole Dancing Shop!

http://www.thepoledancingshop.com/news/62/Have-Pole%2C-Will-Twirl-%252d-A-Pole-Dancer%27s-Search-For-Motivation.html


Have Pole, Will Twirl - A Pole Dancer's Search For Motivation

Posted on 20th Sep 2010 @ 6:21 PM

Lori Myers Pole DancingWhat do you do when you don't have the energy to motivate yourself to do anything?  I mean, you work out (You HAVE to, right?!  Otherwise, how are you strong enough to do all those cool pole moves?!), go to your job (gotta pay the bills), make dinner (trying to eat healthy, so all of that working out pays off), clean the house (clutter makes us crazy)...but you have NOTHING LEFT.  No inspiration for pole even?!  Pole is what I love to do, but sometimes I can't even motivate myself to do what I love!  Maybe it's the fact that I have to shower with my special soap and not use lotion that day, so it's not always something I can do without planning.  Maybe I'm scared I won't nail a move, and then I'll feel discouraged.  Maybe I'm not feeling my music or my outfit.  Maybe the sun is shining outside or there's a full moon and it's throwing me off.  The point is, sometimes I don't even need a reason to feel like I'm not in the right mindset.

I think women especially are expected to do everything.  We work (and yes, taking care of your children is a job!).  We take care of families and households (my "kids" are my boyfriend and two cats).  We are also supposed to go to run all of the house errands, cook, clean, take the kids to their appointments and practices -- oh yeah, and find some time for yourself in there too, will ya?!  Then we are supposed to come home, fall into bed and do it all over again tomorrow.  What is the point of this life?  There is a breaking point.
I am at that point.

I have lost control of my life and I don't even have children to blame it on.  I go to the gym in the morning, commute to work, work a full day, come home, go to bed.  Rinse and repeat.  I haven't been on the pole in a month.  I had to take some time off from classes because of commitments I made with my time.  I told myself it was no big deal because I can practice at home.  I've practiced once.  I miss class.  I miss my fellow students.  I miss my instructor.  Yet, I still don't have the time to return (should be back in the next couple of weeks though).

For most of my life I've been able to buck up, wipe the sleep out of my eyes and just make it work.  Maybe it's because I'm getting older, or maybe everyone needs to slow down sometime, but I can't pull it together to keep up with my own schedule.  Between work, working out, pole and family/friends...something's gotta go (lately, besides pole, it has been family/friends).

I already know the mind is a powerful tool.  Heck, I even wrote about it on this very blog awhile back.  [http://www.thepoledancingshop.com/news/40/Powerful-bodies%2C-Even-more-powerful-minds-by-Lori-Myers.html]  But my brain is winning the war and it's making me take a break from a few things right now.  I know I am not the only busy person in the world.  How does everyone else juggle their activities so they can fit in life necessities along with their passion for pole?

Lori Myers
Student at Twirly Girls Pole Fitness Studio in Pleasanton, California
http://lolorashel.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

What price do you pay for a calorie?

Have you had one of those 100 calorie snack packs?  Who even thinks twice about 100 calorie packs?  100 calories sounds so small.  Those stupid packs are so small.  They almost don't seem worth spending 100 calories.  Yet at the same time, 100 calories doesn't sound like a lot, does it? 

What is the cost of eating 100 calories over your daily allotment every day though?  An extra 100 calorie pack doesn't really seem like a big deal.  But eating only 100 calories over your limit every day will lead to a 10 pound weight gain at the end of a year. 

And a calorie is a calorie when we're talking about going over.  Whether I've eaten a carrot, watermelon or candy, if I go over what I should be eating on a daily basis, I'm going to gain.  Don't get me wrong.  I have always been an "everything in moderation" girl and am now a recently reformed "bread is bad" girl.  But I don't know that it necessarily leads to weight gain.  Does a bread calorie really carry more weight than a veggie calorie?  I don't think so.  I just know that I FEEL better when I'm off the sugar and bread. 

I've been keeping a careful eye on my daily food intake and usually don't beat myself up if I go over by 100, 200 or even 300 calories.  Now I'm going to be a little more strict with myself.  There's no point of getting up every morning at the butt crack of dawn for the gym if I'm just going to eat like a little pig and ruin my hard work.  

How is everyone else doing?